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Do you ever have days where you have a whole bunch of stuff you’ve planned on doing, but you somehow don’t manage to accomplish any of it? It happens to me more often than I think it should. One minute it’s the morning and the next it’s night – and I’m not sure where the day went or how I even spent my time.
I don’t watch Netflix, I don’t read, I don’t clean, I don’t plan, I don’t write. Instead I’ll spend hours on end idly scrolling through various social media platforms. It seems illogical that I spend my whole day doing this – yet, it’s not like I’m doing anything else, so it must be true.
Sometimes I have a whole bunch of stuff I want to get done. I might even have an entire list laying around somewhere as a method of motivation. On such days I just can’t be bothered and no amount of convincing or bullying myself is going to get me to do anything.
In an attempt to stop overthinking everything I turn to mindless activities, such as surfing the internet. I put myself into a zombie-like trance until the day is done. The problem with such a method of procrastination is that the day becomes uncomfortable and – if I’m honest – a waste. I don’t get complete the tasks I don’t want to do, true, but I also don’t do anything I do want to do.
I always feel bad about wasting days in this way. I accomplish nothing – not even a Netflix binge! I can be pretty hard on myself about it all – wishing I was able to overcome such an extreme lack of motivation and make my day more purposeful. I’ve talked about this before in a previous post, but I guess I’m still working on it.
However, these uneventful days sometimes happen even when I don’t really have anything planned. It makes it even more unreasonable that I beat myself up over having gotten nothing done. Why would this be a problem when I wanted to spend the day relaxing anyway?
I guess what it comes down to is the fact that even while relaxing I do “plan” what I want to do, so to speak. I think about what I want to do – watch TV, read, take a nap, etc. Spending hours mindlessly scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed is not really what I have in mind. I find it hard to understand how I get so preoccupied with it.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who has days like this, though I don’t really have any insight to offer anyone about it. I don’t really know why I do it, or how the day seems to leave me behind before I even have a chance to notice. I only know that sometimes it happens, and despite feeling disappointed that things didn’t go to plan, I’m doing my best not to be too hard on myself. There’ll always be other, more productive, days ahead of me anyway.
- Do you ever have days like this?
- How often do they happen?
- Are you hard on yourself when they do happen?
- How soon do you notice that you haven’t done what you’ve planned?
- How do you make sure that these days don’t happen as often as they do?